There is lots of talk about body shaming these day, fat shaming, skinny shaming, and all other sorts of shaming thrown into the mixture. I feel people shouldn't be ashamed of their bodies regardless of how they look. There is enough of crap going on in life without people judging how we look. It's not about if you find a person attractive, it's not about if you would like them to be in your "social circle", it's about letting them find peace with who they are so they can try and forge the best lives they can make for themselves.  I have been obese most of my adult life and I have struggled through some horrible shit. You know what I didn't need, was people laughing at me pointing from cars, a group of men sniggering at me as I passed them shouting to each other "you have a date for tonight" and loads of other crap like that. Luckily, I am a strong person and most of that rolled off me like water off a ducks back, some did have me in tears, but not until I got home, then I would cry into a curry and bottle of wine. We all know, to be healthy we need our BMI to be in the range of 18.5 to 24.9 . My BMI has gone from 61.5 to 43.7 and I feel much healthier for it. Gentle encouragement to be healthy is the way to go, not body shaming.

The trepidation of walking down those stairs, knowing its weight in day (I weigh myself twice a week). I quickly run through what I've ate the past week and end up thinking, omg I think I ate too many bananas. Yes that's right, these days my guilty pleasure is a banana...I could sit and eat ten of them in one sitting, but I don't, I try to behave and eat 5 throughout the day.

Being serious though, a banana is a better go to than a chocolate bar or donut. It is satisfying and it does give that sugar boost. Anyways, I slowly stepped on the scales, carefully positioning my feet, thinking that if I placed them slightly too much to the left or right that I would automatically gain a stone or something. Before I look at the scales i give myself a quick pat down, no phone, no coins, no phonebook or anything else that might add weight,  I even considered stripping of the Pj's I was wearing . Then, I run another checklist through my head, did I pee, check, but I didn't have a crap....maybe I should before I look at the scales, but before I decided if I go move my bowels I get a glimpse of the scales an see I'm 1 lb down. I do a little happy dance and have a satisfied smirk on my face as I get my breakfast. One pound loss  might not seem like a big deal to a lot of people but to anyone who has struggled with weight loss they know it is really important, 14 baby steps to loose a stone.
I would recommend if you are trying to loose weight you should start drinking Green Tea, I don't love the taste but I don't hate it either and it helps speed up metabolism so for that I drink a few cups a day.

Every time I have started dieting I have rewarded myself for the slightest loss, similar to the meme, so I ended up trying to loose the same damn 5 lbs over and over again. When I reached 22st 6 lbs (being 5ft) it started to become painful when to walk. I would take nurofen and paracetamol just to go to the shop, I would have to stop and sit numerous times and it took forever to get there. I rarely took the kids to the park because the mile walk nearly killed me and that was taking breaks 3/4 times. One day the pain got so bad I thought fuck that and I started making the little changes that I needed. White bread to brown bread, alcohol to water, I started cutting back on my portions and started to move a bit more, like a little dance with my daughter or if I needed something upstairs I'd get it myself rather than ask another family member. After about 18 months I managed to loose 5st which I was delighted with, walking wasn't painful anymore, but I got caught up with the accomplishment of that and for a long time I have stayed at that 17 st 6lbs. Until the doctor advised me that I needed to loose more before I hit menopause.My main goal is to try and get off the 2 tablets I'm on for high blood pressure and after that if I can reach a healthy BMI I would be very happy. This blog will track my efforts, accomplishments and the inevitable fails along my weight loss journey. I will also review anything and everything that helps me through this.